I was very sad when I first called my mom, not even thinking about the appt with the vet about the bleeding. Well my dad answered very upset and I realized what had happened. I shut down for awhile, but in my heart I know it was what was meant to be. I had to let go and I was slowly doing so. I told one of my best friends that I knew the last time I went home was the last time I'd ever see him. That was a month ago. I feel guilty that I wasn't able to be there for him when he needed so much help and more love. He has been deaf for the last 2-3 years now, so he was completely isolated from the world. When my baby girl died last year, he didn't have any dog to rely on as his ears. He began to get worse until he just started sleeping 20 or more hours a day.
I hope he has found his best friend up there. I miss them both very much.